A story on Depression from Gerrys Book Of Lamentations😩
(We all know how it feels to get low sometimes. Especially when everything seems too difficult to grasp. Here’s a young man’s story on battling depression)
It kills faster than any deadly disease u can think of.
I have had my own taste of depression that I almost considered taking my life.
It was down on me that I started questioning my existence.
I lost my worth, value and self esteem.
I started depreciating morally and psychologically.
I found myself depressed, I lost my total being, I became a stranger to my own self.
The societal pressure? Family pressure? Peer pressure? I was the Egyptian among the Amalek.
Everything I do seems different, in the mix of friends I am always the Jew guy, I’m always the one not doing what others are doing.
I take the blame of everything that happened around me, people always trying to questions my trust including family member.
The thought of killing myself came twice but something I don’t know keep holding me back, it reached to a point that I started imaging using a kitchen knife to stab myself.
I hated myself that I regret coming into existence. I was oppressed by people I called fam.
All my friends were doing one sort of evil just to feel among, they were castigating me that I’m doing like a Jew guy. Yahoo I no gree do, ashawo I no gree fvck, babe I no gree get infact it was as if my life was meaningless.
I have good people around me but the pressure was much that I started hating myself. A sister open mouth tell me say I de suffer myself make I come make e carry me go where dem go lift me up u can imagine.
The harsh words, physical assult, public humiliation and castigation was much on me that I started being a loner, I started staying indoors, I hardly walk pass where people are gathered coz of fear of what they will say about me, I was a prisoner of my own self.
2020 was my worst year so far, I almost took a drastic decision that would have cause me everything I cherished coz of depression and oppression from sons and daughters of Lilith. I was able to pull through the moment, I start realising my worth.
I refused to be pressurized by anyone for anything. Secondly I met a scholar who helped shape my live and unleash the potential in me..
Don’t let people define you, don’t give them the impression of letting you fall in to depression.they will talk but don’t let Dem get into you.
This story will be told in a big way someday with full explaination but till then.
