My Fault

I loved you
Once
Twice
And again
It was my fault

You turned your back on me
I still loved you
And it was my fault

My body was your passion
My heart was your game
My mind was your console
But I loved you
It was my fault

My pocket was your aim
My heart, you played
Still I loved you
It was my fault

I thought we were a family
I thought you felt love for me
I thought you would never leave
I thought you were mine
I thought you would listen
I thought and I still think
About the days that you would love me
Again
It is still my fault
That I love you

I thought you would be there for me
I thought you would be the rock to lean on
I thought you had my back
I thought you would catch me if I fall
Stupid me
I fell
Waiting on your grip
I believed you
It was my fault

Some days I wish you would surprise me
Say that I am beautiful
Whisper how special I am
Hold me for no reason
Bug my phone till my face is all crimson red
But I wait in vain
Tell me
Is it my fault?

Waiting on the day you call me your world
Waiting on the day you can be my hero
Waiting on the day I would feel loved by you
Waiting on the day we touch & feel
I am still falling
And waiting
Yes
It is my fault

Paint me the words “I’m sorry”
Come crashing through my window
Run after me as I walk away from you
Say something
Anything
Be my Prince
Is it my fault?
That I dream too much?
Maybe it is my fault
Yes, it is my fault

It is my fault
I’m stuck in a bad religion
I continue to hurt myself
I feel no healing
It is my fault
That I am stuck loving you

You left me
I never saw that coming
But you left me
I waited
I waited patiently
For your return
How foolish I was
Now I know
It was my fault